27 April, 2007

Ah, here I am again. It has been awhile, yes, This i know. Things seem to be on a downward spiral once again, and I fight to keep it all somewhat level. Fight to keep the insanity from overwhelming my mind, and dragging me down with it. Fighting the headaches, and the never ending feeling of emptiness.

11 Feb 2007

Not a whole lot to say today, it has been awhile since i have posted on this thing... bet ya missed me huh? ya right ! Nothing really seems to change much, nothing life altering or worth writing about...Same ole shit, same ole body, same ole mind. Tired, not physically , but ...just tired. Worn out maybe, hell if I know. Tired of the headaches, tired of the cold...yea, just tired.

25 January 2007

24 January 2007

Not much going on today, just feel so tired. So tired of everything, tired of breathing, tired of feeling sick, and tired of the inevitable crash that all ways comes. Tired of being in debt , tired of worrying about dying, but also tired of living. Tired of seeing those around me slowly die off, leaving me here to live in this rotten cesspool. Tired of seeing those I care about in pain, and tired of people worrying about me. I think I am tired of that most of all. I wish I could just be forgotten, left to drown alone . Left to fade slowly into a forgotten mist.

23 January 2007

I can not think of a very good reason why I am even starting this blog. Perhaps it is because I have lost all creativity that once resided in this mind, that now just seems to sit silent and rot. So many things have gone astray, and I no longer have any clue on how to retrieve them, at times I find myself wondering if i even care to anymore. Perhaps it would be best , to just live while I can in a field of total darkness. I guess time will tell. And perhaps this will be the place that my life unfolds, until it finally comes to a screeching halt and ceases to exist anymore.