01 September 2010

Well what a day today was 90 degrees out and even hotter in here. Almost killed a guy today, my temper seems to be snapping off with no notice latley. Anger is setting in again , i feel it churning and boiling inside wanting to be released, better keep a lid on it. The hush that settled over my being for a time, seem to have gone, and the eternal screams have started up once more...working to drive away what if any sanity there is left in this mind. At times I just feel I should let it all have me, just give in and let it use me as it will...see what becomes of it all. i am just so damned tired latley, physicaly, mentaly just entirley.

29 August 2010

My my it has been a long fucking time hasn't it? I made it trough all the medical shit and am still here, what a fucking surprise. Lungs are no better still about a 60-65% loss, but hey, so far they are still bringing in the air. And as I am posting to this blog, a vice of a headache has me within its grip.. the addiction has gone nowhere either. well...such is life